Shadow of Memories

I thought about us so many times,
And yet that is never going to happen again.
No matter how much I think about it,
I cannot concrete my thoughts into actions.

I am trying to respect your wishes so much,
I am trying so much to burn these thoughts,
I am trying so much to burn this feeling,
I am trying so much to block my inner me,

I need to change my lands,
I need to go away from your memory,
I need to convince myself you do not exist anymore.

I have thought so many times on going to your house for an hour and so,
I have thought so many times on what to say if I had the courage,
I have thought so many times on what would your reaction be,
I have thought and yet I haven't done anything but this,

These words are my way to free myself,
These words are my chamber,
These words protect me of going crazy,
These words protect me of loosing myself,
These words protect you of me as well,
These words are my only company,

Now that I realized that I will survive,
Now that I realized that you will live,
Now that I realized that we are not to be together,

I know I have to let go,
I know I need to go,
I know these words won't be the last,
I know now that you will always be in my shadows.

However I will try not to be in yours.
And again I am sorry.

To R.A.M.O.

Memories