Shadow of Memories

I thought about us so many times,
And yet that is never going to happen again.
No matter how much I think about it,
I cannot concrete my thoughts into actions.

I am trying to respect your wishes so much,
I am trying so much to burn these thoughts,
I am trying so much to burn this feeling,
I am trying so much to block my inner me,

I need to change my lands,
I need to go away from your memory,
I need to convince myself you do not exist anymore.

I have thought so many times on going to your house for an hour and so,
I have thought so many times on what to say if I had the courage,
I have thought so many times on what would your reaction be,
I have thought and yet I haven't done anything but this,

These words are my way to free myself,
These words are my chamber,
These words protect me of going crazy,
These words protect me of loosing myself,
These words protect you of me as well,
These words are my only company,

Now that I realized that I will survive,
Now that I realized that you will live,
Now that I realized that we are not to be together,

I know I have to let go,
I know I need to go,
I know these words won't be the last,
I know now that you will always be in my shadows.

However I will try not to be in yours.
And again I am sorry.

To R.A.M.O.

Memories

In a Dream

In a Dream

Do you really hate me that much?
Do you really hate me?
I believe if I understood what do you think about me I would hate me too.
But instead you don't talk to me, I am in love with a memory.
A memory that follows you everywhere and anywhere.
I dreamt about you last night and in the dream I told you I was sorry while I was hugging you with my arms around your neck.
I fought with your mother. She was trying to protect you from me.
She was afraid I would hurt you again.
But I stood up and answered her that I was there for you and only for you.
That I didn't care about anything else but you.
I said I did understand why she thought about me so low.
However and even thought I knew I didn't deserve another chance I was there begging for their good heart and yours to give me another opportunity to love you and to be with you.
I was truly just there to devote my life to you, to love and to respect you for as long as God would allow me to.
And knowing now that it was only a dream I come here to this place where I feel safe.
Trusting my thoughts to The Universe with the hope that perhaps some day you will read these lines and will give me after some years another chance.

To R.A.M.O.
Let me be that person again...

Forget you.

I need to forget you

They said I had to forget you,

They said I must let you go from my deep memories,

They said I should let it in the past,

They said I have to burried the memories,

But I do not need such a pain,

I already loose you once,

Yet why to have the pain of loosing you again

That I cannot let,

I will always remember you as I promise you once,

I will always say thank you for all you did and have done. 

By Vicky Butterfly Slim

I know your needs and I will respect them.

I know you don't want to know anything about a new love,
I know you need your time and so I am here writing this words,
I know that you might never read this poem as you don't even understand,
I know you are busy thinking about your goals,
I know you don't need distractions and so I am here throwing all I need to say to you,
 I am trying to let it go to the universe, trying to get it out as it is burning in the inside.

I miss you so much, I remember everything in detail now,
I feel like if I had been asleep for a long time and you just woke me up,
And now that I am awaken I want to hug you, but I can't,
I want to be with you, but I understand I can't.

I just would love you to know that I am here for you,
I will support all your fights, your wishes and desires,
Indeed I don't know why I feel it is right and for that I will do it,
I will do it even if that means that I need to wait till you come to your senses.

I am doing this commitment with you, as I am doing it with me.
I don't know if I will get burn in the process but for sure I know I need this,
I need to go with the process so yes I will for you but more of all for me.
I know your needs and now it suits my needs and for that I will respect you and myselves.
I know that for some reason people don't think at this as if this was love,
but for some reason I feel that this is correct
And so I am here.

Absence

Absence.

My father did not say a thing,

My mother said it was the best.

My friends could with you,

You could with me in the deepest of my heart.

Today, I do not feel but cold in my body, 

My heart feels lonely.

Through the nights the sleeplessness is my best friend,

And through the mornings humidity is my partner all day long.

It is is thy you who has stayed,

And at the same time,

Who has left from my side, 

I don't know, What to think?

Where? Should I stay,

If I am with you, 

But beside you,

 I don't see myself anymore.

My wakefulness mind,

While my heart dies, 

In the absence thereof,

From your lips at dawn.

Before Sunrise

By Miss Vicky Caballero


Spanish Version

Breathing From You

Breathing From You.

I find myself in my bedroom jealous because you are not around with me, 

I find myself astonished among the four walls of my bedroom, 

I find myself speechless to describe what had just happened, 

Without words to explain you what you provoke in me, 

Without words to ask you what had happened?

Without words to think about this so full of love, of time and of memories. 

You make me think in all that you professed, 

You make me think that I do know the answer, 

You make me think in the air I breath, 

Air that tastes of you, 

Air that is inside of me, 

Air that comes from you. 

By Miss Vicky Caballero

Moon Bay, Oaxaca, Mexico

Respirando de Ti-Español

Situations

SITUATIONS.

Bellas Artes' Palace, Mexico 2011

Situaciones en Español

Situations that oblige you to suffer,
Situations that pull you to the limits,
Situations that put you into the edge of crying,
Situations that make you cry,
Situations that urges you to tremble,
Situations that tilt you to sadness,
Situations that move you to craziness,
Situations that cost you your freedom,
Situations that can make you....
Situations that mean your life.